Sunday, May 15, 2011

Current Reading 2

Hey everyone, gosh it feels like I haven't updated in a while. Things still aren't as good as home as I like, but I think I'm good enough to start posting on the blog again. So I figured I'd tell you what I've been currently reading.

As of now, I have just finished reading Star Wars: Truce at Bakura by Kathy Tyers. As the title suggests, it is a Star Wars novel. It follows the adventures of Luke Skywalker, Han Solo, and Leia Organa shortly after the battle of Endor in Episode 6 Return of the Jedi.

In this book, the Rebel Alliance comes across a transmission from an Imperial Fleet. The Fleet is located near a planet called Bakura, a planet that was just succombed to Imperial Rule three years ago. The planet is under attack by some mysterious alien force that seeks to destroy all humanity called the Ssi-ruk. Realizing that this could be a key in order to get Bakura to join the Alliance, Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia, Han Solo, Chewbacca, R2-D2, C-3PO, and a Rebel Fleet are sent to aid Bakura and perhaps discuss a treaty. Along the quest to save Bakura they meet some new characters, including a young woman who is Bakuran Senator named Gaeriel, whom Luke develops feelings for. Though the Imperials on Bakura aren't too thrilled with the Alliance, they admit they have no choice but to cooperate with the Alliance.

Meanwhile, a force-sensitive human boy named Dev Sibwarra struggles to keep his freedom of will onboard the Ssi-ruk ship. When he senses Luke Skywalker's presence through the Force, he tries everything in his power to warn him what the Ssi-ruk plan to do to humanity. But it's not easy, especially when you are being brainwashed every few days.

What did I think of it? Well, to be honest, it was kind of strange. One of the strangest books I've ever read to be even more honest. But the book overall was pretty good, especially the ending, which was very interesting. I would recommend it to any Star Wars fan, especially those who wonder what happened after the final episode.

Monday, May 2, 2011

Divorce

Do you know anyone who is divorced? A friend, a family member, perhaps even your own parents are divorced. Divorce is awful. It hurts very much. When one experiences divorce, it breaks the heart, causing it to fall into thousands upon thousands of pieces. So many pieces that it is difficult to put them together. And sometimes, not all of them are put together. Some are lost forever, never to return and complete the puzzle again.

Currently, I am experiencing the pain that occurs when one's parents divorce. It hurts terribly. Especially because of everything that has caused it. I would rather not talk about what, but I will say that there is a lot of hurt and betrayal rolling around in my family. My heart aches, both from the sadness and anger. I am constantly shedding tears and grieving. And when I'm not grieving, I'm thinking about it because I can't push the fact that my parents are getting a divorce out of my mind. Not even for a few split seconds can I forget about it. I suspect that I will never forget about it either. They will never be together again. Nothing can stop them now. They are going to get a divorce, whether I like it or not.

As you can tell, it hurts. Not only is it hurting me, but it is hurting my parents and my siblings. I can see the loss etched into their faces. Even though we try to wear masks that cover up our true feelings, we know each other so well that we can see beyond them. That's what stinks even more. Our family use to be very close. Now everything has fallen apart. And I feel helpless because I can't place the pieces back together. In some cases, despite the fact that I know it is not my fault, I can't help but think that is.

So I would like you all to know that as I am dealing with this pain, it may be a while before I post my next blog post. I will be busy distracting myself with other matters. Mostly writing, but maybe reading a book or something as well. Please, if you wouldn't mind, I would like you to keep me in your prayers. Not just me, but my siblings, my mother, and my father as well. This is difficult on all of us. And it will be for a long time to come I imagine.

Until the next post, I bid farewell.