Before I go on and talk about anything having to do with "The Fall of Narnia" I have decided to do something first. I would love to thank the following people for their support and for believing in me. Without them, I would not be as great an author as I am today. Some of them have helped a great deal with my "Fall of Narnia" piece, and others I thank because they have helped me develop my writing style.
I would like to thank the following four people who have been my constant editors since I started this fic. They are from thelionscall.com, and I would like to call them by the names they go by on the forum in order to keep their identities more of a secret. A couple of them actually follow this blog too. My gratitude goes to Ajnos, the talking South African linguist, Eowyn of Narnia the Writing Contest Coordinator, Narnian Steward, and Lil Princess. These four have always been willing to set aside their valuable time in order to look over my chapters, and point out things I need to work on. If it weren't for them, my story would probably be very choppy and wouldn't make much sense.
I would also like to thank the other folks on the lionscall.com for listening to me going on and on about this fic. It's amazing that they haven't thrown virtual items at me out of annoyance. They're good people on there, and have "patience as saints" as an expression goes in my area. It's amazing to know such people on there. They have all supported me in my writing and in developing my relationship with God and in Christ. And who aren't afraid to talk about spiritual matters. May the Lion always keep you between his paws and may every step you take be with him.
I would like to give a special thanks to Elizabeth L.W. She is perhaps my biggest fan when it comes to this story, and she is the one who shows that there are actually people on the Internet, both inside and outside the lionscall, who care about it.
My thanks goes also to Jill Veila. You who have been of great help when I needed aid in blogging. May the Lion keep you in sight, my sister-from-another-mother. (We're not blood related, but we have so much in common it feels like we are.)
Also, I would like to thank my fanfiction Mormon friend BookObsesserNumberOne , and my fanfiction atheist friend Anya the Purple. The two of you have been such great influences when it comes to developing my writing ability. Along with my friends on the lionscall, you have helped with the development of my sentence structures. The two of you have been my partners in writing with our Chronicles of Narnia/His Dark Materials crossovers, and I would not trade that partnership for any other. And I pray that one day you will come to accept the Truth the same as I have.
My other thanks go to my 7th, 8th, and 9th grade English teachers. Mrs. W, for first getting me into poetry. Mrs. M for being willing to take her valuable time in order to look over my stories, especially because of all the essays that she had to read! And I would also like to pay special thanks to Miss T. For first getting me into Greek Mythology, and also first getting me into blogging. She have also served influentially in my writing style, teaching me to always put paragraph breaks whenever a different character is speaking and constantly badgering me about using coordinating conjunctions as the first words of sentences. Do not fear, I'm trying to train out of that.
I would also like to thank my French teacher, Mrs. H. She is the one who first got me into foreign language studying. And it's because of her that I am trying to learn linguistics. I'm looking forward to taking her French 2 class this upcoming school year.
I would love to thank my best friend, Brianne. Because she has often been the source of my inspiration in my writing, especially my poems. She has been there for me when things were dark. And I plan on doing the same for her should things get dark. And though we may be far, our friendship is only going to grow closer.
I would like to give much of my gratitude to my family. Though we may be broken apart, you have always played important roles in my life. Mom and Dad because they have always supported me. My bro- because even though he can be a pain in the butt at times, I wouldn't have any other brother in the world. And to my sister- the one with the fiery temper but the strong faith in the Aslan in our world. May you both continue to have such belief as you continue to grow and get to know more about the world.
Last, but never least, in fact the most important, I would like to thank God himself. For doing so much for me. He has served as my light when things grew dark. He has provided me life where other things would have given me death. And it's because of Him that I know that I have a purpose in this world. A purpose that is worth living. And it's because of Him that when I know my time comes, I will not have to fear the grave.
My deepest of gratitude goes to you all,
WriterFreak101
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Thursday, July 14, 2011
The Cast of "The Fall of Narnia"
So I was just thinking, perhaps you want to know the main cast of "The Fall of Narnia." Also known as "How Narnia Fell" on thelionscall.com. I decided that I would put the main cast here. Meaning these are the characters that are the most important in the story. Warning, there will be spoilers thrown out here and there. So if you don't want to spoil the story, I'd stay clear. Also, there will be a few things in pictures that are out of place. I tried to take pictures that would closely represent the characters, I ask you ignore things that seem out of place. Like the picture of Mr. Beaver standing beside the Centauride I chose to represent Summermane.
Don't pay attention to the Beaver |
Forgive the Horns, I couldn't find a picture of a satyrette. |
Evrya is a Satyrette who is just as bold as her husband, though more cooperative. She is a loyal wife who stays by her husband's side and won't easily leave him. She is the carrier of his child. Her faith in Aslan isn't as easily shaken as his, and she is often the ones who brings him back on track. She dreams of one day raising her new family during a new glorious age of Narnia.
*Though in Greek Myths Satyrs usually marry and fall in love with Wood and Water Nymphs (Dryads and Naiads) Satyrettes were created so as to keep non-humanoids from mating with humanoids.
Well, there you have it. That is the main cast that is featured throughout this fanfic. That isn't to say that those are the only characters. In fact, there are plenty more that haven't even been addressed yet, both major (though not as major as the ones listed above) and minor. I plan on putting a new page to this blog dedicated to naming the cast of "The Fall of Narnia."
Sunday, June 19, 2011
The Fall of Narnia - A Narnia Fanfiction
Among the many stories that I have on fanfiction.net and on the forums of thelionscall.com, this is story that is currently getting my main attention at the moment. The reason why is mostly because it is what I hope will become my most major project. So far it's gain lots of reviews on thelionscall, but not a lot on fanfiction.net. (Oh well.) Anyway, this post is going to be talking about the Narnia fanfic that I have come to call "The Fall of Narnia." Basically, this fic a telling on how Narnia may have probably fell to Telmar and how it fell into the Dark Age.
For those of you who are reading this, you should probably feel lucky. Why you may ask? Because you get the inside scoop about my fanfiction. And who knows, maybe even sneak peeks from time to time. See, it pays to take a look at this blog doesn't it? ;)
Now then, first off, perhaps I should give you a summary on what's going to happen in this story. As I mentioned before, it tells how Narnia fell to the Telmarines and how it entered the Dark Age. During this time of approaching darkness, there is much political turmoil and chaos. This turmoil branches all the way back when High King Peter and his siblings returned to their own world after ruling Narnia for fifteen years. Shortly after their return, Narnia is grieving for its lost kings and queens. In an attempt to help restore order to Narnia before lawlessness grows, the neighboring kingdom and ally of Narnia, the country of Archenland, establishes Prince Corin, son of King Lune of Archenland, as the next ruler. The bloodline of Corin rules Narnia for nearly one thousand years. And while this era isn't exactly a Golden Age, Narnia continues to thrive and is at peace with most of the kingdoms in the Narnian world (though occasionally Calormen will attack.) Time continues to pass, and soon things begin to change. The creatures of Narnia begin to develop a general cultural belief that Narnia doesn't need the Children of Adam (also known as humans) as their ruler. They believe that Narnia can rule itself without them. This despicable theory continues to grow, and soon becomes commonly accepted to the point where it is considered acceptable...and even true.
Finally, after nearly one thousand years, the Narnians who sought to rid of the rule of the Children of Adam decide to do just that. The Narnians gather into one massive army, and in their mighty force they launch a rebellion on the heir of Corin, the beautiful Queen Swanwhite II. After six months of war, Queen Swanwhite II and the other descendants of Corin are killed, and Narnia is without a human ruler. Though the Narnians feel victorious at first, they soon realize that they now have to pick a new ruler. This leads to the clashes between the different species of Narnia. Centaurs, Fauns, Satyrs, Marsh-wiggles, Dwarfs, Talking Beasts, and others fight for the throne of Narnia. In additon there is still conflict between these Rebel Narnians and the Loyal Narnians, those who still believe in the truth that Narnia is never right unless a Child of Adam was ruler. To add on top of this, the Dark Narnians, the creatures who fought on the side of the White Witch, the evil ruler of Narnia before High King Peter and his siblings, have also entered the conflict in hopes they can regain the kingdom in the name of the Witch. Just when you think things can't get any worse, we get another group who seeks to control Narnia. This group is the race of humans known as the Telmarines, who emigrated to Narnia to escape famine in their home country of Telmar, which lies beyond Western Wild of Narnia. Though they appeared weak and ragged due to their flight, they became stronger over the years, and they too seek to gain control of the blessed kingdom of Narnia. And the reason why Archenland hasn't sent a new person to rule is because they are dealing with Calormen, the Empire that seeks to control Narnia too.
It is in this time of waging war and treachery that two humans from Oxford, England are summoned by the Great Lion Aslan, ruler and creator of the Narnian world and all worlds. These two humans, Henry Shepherd and Alice Smith, are given the task of finding one of Narnia's lost treasures, the Horn of High Queen Susan, so that one day it can be placed where someone else will find it. In addition, it his hoped that the finding of the Horn will bring the Loyal Narnians and the Rebel Narnians under one banner once more. These missions won't be easy though, all of Narnia is at war. In addition, they are also called to learn a few lessons of their own.
Thus, this is the summary that I have given you involving my fanfiction story, "The Fall of Narnia." My next couple of posts will be focused on this fanfic. In these posts I will be discussing what's going on the story and talking about what I am doing in order to go into deeper depth and development of the Narnian world. In addition, I will talk about what has been inspiring the story and what material I may be using. In addition, I may provide even provide a separate section or even a different blog where you can discuss this work of fanfiction if you desire.
I want to thank you for hearing me blab about this story for nearly seven paragraphs. And I would like to thank you all for your support and prayers that you have given. They have definitely helped me during these troubled times. Things will probably be getting a little hectic before they get better. So yes, I ask that you continue to pray for my family and I, but I just want you to know, I am forever grateful to you all.
God bless,
WriterFreak
For those of you who are reading this, you should probably feel lucky. Why you may ask? Because you get the inside scoop about my fanfiction. And who knows, maybe even sneak peeks from time to time. See, it pays to take a look at this blog doesn't it? ;)
Now then, first off, perhaps I should give you a summary on what's going to happen in this story. As I mentioned before, it tells how Narnia fell to the Telmarines and how it entered the Dark Age. During this time of approaching darkness, there is much political turmoil and chaos. This turmoil branches all the way back when High King Peter and his siblings returned to their own world after ruling Narnia for fifteen years. Shortly after their return, Narnia is grieving for its lost kings and queens. In an attempt to help restore order to Narnia before lawlessness grows, the neighboring kingdom and ally of Narnia, the country of Archenland, establishes Prince Corin, son of King Lune of Archenland, as the next ruler. The bloodline of Corin rules Narnia for nearly one thousand years. And while this era isn't exactly a Golden Age, Narnia continues to thrive and is at peace with most of the kingdoms in the Narnian world (though occasionally Calormen will attack.) Time continues to pass, and soon things begin to change. The creatures of Narnia begin to develop a general cultural belief that Narnia doesn't need the Children of Adam (also known as humans) as their ruler. They believe that Narnia can rule itself without them. This despicable theory continues to grow, and soon becomes commonly accepted to the point where it is considered acceptable...and even true.
Finally, after nearly one thousand years, the Narnians who sought to rid of the rule of the Children of Adam decide to do just that. The Narnians gather into one massive army, and in their mighty force they launch a rebellion on the heir of Corin, the beautiful Queen Swanwhite II. After six months of war, Queen Swanwhite II and the other descendants of Corin are killed, and Narnia is without a human ruler. Though the Narnians feel victorious at first, they soon realize that they now have to pick a new ruler. This leads to the clashes between the different species of Narnia. Centaurs, Fauns, Satyrs, Marsh-wiggles, Dwarfs, Talking Beasts, and others fight for the throne of Narnia. In additon there is still conflict between these Rebel Narnians and the Loyal Narnians, those who still believe in the truth that Narnia is never right unless a Child of Adam was ruler. To add on top of this, the Dark Narnians, the creatures who fought on the side of the White Witch, the evil ruler of Narnia before High King Peter and his siblings, have also entered the conflict in hopes they can regain the kingdom in the name of the Witch. Just when you think things can't get any worse, we get another group who seeks to control Narnia. This group is the race of humans known as the Telmarines, who emigrated to Narnia to escape famine in their home country of Telmar, which lies beyond Western Wild of Narnia. Though they appeared weak and ragged due to their flight, they became stronger over the years, and they too seek to gain control of the blessed kingdom of Narnia. And the reason why Archenland hasn't sent a new person to rule is because they are dealing with Calormen, the Empire that seeks to control Narnia too.
It is in this time of waging war and treachery that two humans from Oxford, England are summoned by the Great Lion Aslan, ruler and creator of the Narnian world and all worlds. These two humans, Henry Shepherd and Alice Smith, are given the task of finding one of Narnia's lost treasures, the Horn of High Queen Susan, so that one day it can be placed where someone else will find it. In addition, it his hoped that the finding of the Horn will bring the Loyal Narnians and the Rebel Narnians under one banner once more. These missions won't be easy though, all of Narnia is at war. In addition, they are also called to learn a few lessons of their own.
Thus, this is the summary that I have given you involving my fanfiction story, "The Fall of Narnia." My next couple of posts will be focused on this fanfic. In these posts I will be discussing what's going on the story and talking about what I am doing in order to go into deeper depth and development of the Narnian world. In addition, I will talk about what has been inspiring the story and what material I may be using. In addition, I may provide even provide a separate section or even a different blog where you can discuss this work of fanfiction if you desire.
I want to thank you for hearing me blab about this story for nearly seven paragraphs. And I would like to thank you all for your support and prayers that you have given. They have definitely helped me during these troubled times. Things will probably be getting a little hectic before they get better. So yes, I ask that you continue to pray for my family and I, but I just want you to know, I am forever grateful to you all.
God bless,
WriterFreak
Sunday, June 12, 2011
A Poem
Yes, believe it or not, I do write poetry. And in my disbelief, people actually like them! I have this series of poems on fanfiction.net which are called, "Narnia Character Poems." In that series of poems I explore the spiritual journeys of characters through the movie-verse perspective. (Someone needs to redeem the movie-verse in some way or another. And because it was the movies who first pulled me to Narnia I thought, why not me?) And if they represent something (such as Aslan=God, Jesus) then I tend to explore that as well. Anyway, people actually like them! Which boggles me to be honest, cause I don't think I'm all that great of a poet. I also have various poems on the Bible section of fanfiction.net too.
For those of you who are following my blog or are reading this, consider yourselves lucky. You are getting a glimpse of a poem written by me that is nowhere else on the internet. That's right, nowhere. It's not even on my fictionpress account (which I don't even use to be honest, don't know why I have it.) It's not even on thelionscall.com either. That's right, it's here and here only.
Ok, I'll stop rambling and let you read.
Sometimes life seems so unfair
In the times when you can't bear
All the pain and misery flare
And you can't escape the monster's lair.
Nothing seems so great and bright
You feel that there's no one in sight
You question how you will win this fight
But I'm telling you now you better hold tight.
For I see in the distance someone,
A man who came and paid a ton
To rescue you from being shunned
And He has already won.
So come now wipe those tears away
For no one's life is too high to pay
So listen to what Jesus has to say
Let Him mold you like clay
This is the reason why
You no longer have to cry
I'm not telling you lies
So come and don't be shy.
Believe with all your soul
You're coming out of that hole
For the Lamb has paid the toll
Watch the happiness unfold.
You no longer have to weep,
You can now finally sleep,
Don't worry about the leap
You are now one of the sheep.
The wolf ran beyond,
So sing a song,
All that was wrong
It is now gone.
Admittedly, it's not one of my best pieces. I wrote it in like five minutes and wasn't going to share it, but I felt the need to post it for some odd reason. I hope it was ok despite how awful it was, trust me though, my poetry is usually better. Don't believe me? Take a look. You can some of my poems on fanfiction.net and on the lionscall.com.
Admittedly I was a bit lazy for this post. I promise I'll post a better one soon though, when I'm not feeling so lazy.
For those of you who are following my blog or are reading this, consider yourselves lucky. You are getting a glimpse of a poem written by me that is nowhere else on the internet. That's right, nowhere. It's not even on my fictionpress account (which I don't even use to be honest, don't know why I have it.) It's not even on thelionscall.com either. That's right, it's here and here only.
Ok, I'll stop rambling and let you read.
Sometimes life seems so unfair
In the times when you can't bear
All the pain and misery flare
And you can't escape the monster's lair.
Nothing seems so great and bright
You feel that there's no one in sight
You question how you will win this fight
But I'm telling you now you better hold tight.
For I see in the distance someone,
A man who came and paid a ton
To rescue you from being shunned
And He has already won.
So come now wipe those tears away
For no one's life is too high to pay
So listen to what Jesus has to say
Let Him mold you like clay
This is the reason why
You no longer have to cry
I'm not telling you lies
So come and don't be shy.
Believe with all your soul
You're coming out of that hole
For the Lamb has paid the toll
Watch the happiness unfold.
You no longer have to weep,
You can now finally sleep,
Don't worry about the leap
You are now one of the sheep.
The wolf ran beyond,
So sing a song,
All that was wrong
It is now gone.
Admittedly, it's not one of my best pieces. I wrote it in like five minutes and wasn't going to share it, but I felt the need to post it for some odd reason. I hope it was ok despite how awful it was, trust me though, my poetry is usually better. Don't believe me? Take a look. You can some of my poems on fanfiction.net and on the lionscall.com.
Admittedly I was a bit lazy for this post. I promise I'll post a better one soon though, when I'm not feeling so lazy.
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Current Reading 3 & 4
During the amount of time I have been gone, I have recently finished reading Percy Jacskon & the Olympians #1 The Lightning Thief and Percy Jackson & the Olympians #2 The Sea of Monsters.
In the first book of the series, Percy Jackson discovers that his true origins. His father is the Greek god of the Seas known as Poseidon. Because his mother is a human though, he is not a full god, but a half-blood. If you think this is cool, think again. Percy is now on the run from Greek monsters who seek to kill him because he is now the most powerful half-blood known so far. In addition, he must now go on a quest to prove his innocence when he learns that he's being framed for stealing Zeus' lightning bolt. And if he can, he must try and save his mother, who is being held captive. With the help of his friends Annabeth, daughter of the Greek goddess Athena, goddess of wisdom and warfare, and his best friend Rover the Satyr, he sets out on a journey to the Underworld, ruled by the Greek god named Hades, which is located somewhere in Las Vegas. But the journey isn't going to be easy. Hades' Furies seek to make Percy their next meal, and other monsters want to have him for lunch as well. On top of it all, he must figure out the mystery of why Hades would steal the lightning bolt.
In the next book of the series, Percy Jackson is one year older and is preparing for his next summer at Camp Half-Blood. But things go terribly wrong. After arriving at Camp Half-Blood he learns that Thalia's Tree, the only thing that protects the borders of the Camp, is dying. Someone poisoned it. In addition, he learns that his best friend, Grover, is stranded on a deserted island and if not rescued soon, will become the next meal of the great Cyclops known as Polyphemus. Against the orders of the camp directors, Percy sets out with Annabeth, along with his new friend and half-brother Tyson the Cyclops to the Sea of Monsters, known also as the Bermuda Triangle, in order to rescue Grover. And of course, try to figure out who poisoned Thalia's tree, and save the tree as well. As things often turn out for Percy Jackson though, the journey is never easy. Especially when you have an army of monsters led by a half-blood traitor seeking to kill you before you can find a magic golden sheep fleece that can heal any wound or injury of any living thing.
In the first book of the series, Percy Jackson discovers that his true origins. His father is the Greek god of the Seas known as Poseidon. Because his mother is a human though, he is not a full god, but a half-blood. If you think this is cool, think again. Percy is now on the run from Greek monsters who seek to kill him because he is now the most powerful half-blood known so far. In addition, he must now go on a quest to prove his innocence when he learns that he's being framed for stealing Zeus' lightning bolt. And if he can, he must try and save his mother, who is being held captive. With the help of his friends Annabeth, daughter of the Greek goddess Athena, goddess of wisdom and warfare, and his best friend Rover the Satyr, he sets out on a journey to the Underworld, ruled by the Greek god named Hades, which is located somewhere in Las Vegas. But the journey isn't going to be easy. Hades' Furies seek to make Percy their next meal, and other monsters want to have him for lunch as well. On top of it all, he must figure out the mystery of why Hades would steal the lightning bolt.

Sunday, May 15, 2011
Current Reading 2
Hey everyone, gosh it feels like I haven't updated in a while. Things still aren't as good as home as I like, but I think I'm good enough to start posting on the blog again. So I figured I'd tell you what I've been currently reading.
As of now, I have just finished reading Star Wars: Truce at Bakura by Kathy Tyers. As the title suggests, it is a Star Wars novel. It follows the adventures of Luke Skywalker, Han Solo, and Leia Organa shortly after the battle of Endor in Episode 6 Return of the Jedi.
In this book, the Rebel Alliance comes across a transmission from an Imperial Fleet. The Fleet is located near a planet called Bakura, a planet that was just succombed to Imperial Rule three years ago. The planet is under attack by some mysterious alien force that seeks to destroy all humanity called the Ssi-ruk. Realizing that this could be a key in order to get Bakura to join the Alliance, Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia, Han Solo, Chewbacca, R2-D2, C-3PO, and a Rebel Fleet are sent to aid Bakura and perhaps discuss a treaty. Along the quest to save Bakura they meet some new characters, including a young woman who is Bakuran Senator named Gaeriel, whom Luke develops feelings for. Though the Imperials on Bakura aren't too thrilled with the Alliance, they admit they have no choice but to cooperate with the Alliance.
Meanwhile, a force-sensitive human boy named Dev Sibwarra struggles to keep his freedom of will onboard the Ssi-ruk ship. When he senses Luke Skywalker's presence through the Force, he tries everything in his power to warn him what the Ssi-ruk plan to do to humanity. But it's not easy, especially when you are being brainwashed every few days.
What did I think of it? Well, to be honest, it was kind of strange. One of the strangest books I've ever read to be even more honest. But the book overall was pretty good, especially the ending, which was very interesting. I would recommend it to any Star Wars fan, especially those who wonder what happened after the final episode.
As of now, I have just finished reading Star Wars: Truce at Bakura by Kathy Tyers. As the title suggests, it is a Star Wars novel. It follows the adventures of Luke Skywalker, Han Solo, and Leia Organa shortly after the battle of Endor in Episode 6 Return of the Jedi.
In this book, the Rebel Alliance comes across a transmission from an Imperial Fleet. The Fleet is located near a planet called Bakura, a planet that was just succombed to Imperial Rule three years ago. The planet is under attack by some mysterious alien force that seeks to destroy all humanity called the Ssi-ruk. Realizing that this could be a key in order to get Bakura to join the Alliance, Luke Skywalker, Princess Leia, Han Solo, Chewbacca, R2-D2, C-3PO, and a Rebel Fleet are sent to aid Bakura and perhaps discuss a treaty. Along the quest to save Bakura they meet some new characters, including a young woman who is Bakuran Senator named Gaeriel, whom Luke develops feelings for. Though the Imperials on Bakura aren't too thrilled with the Alliance, they admit they have no choice but to cooperate with the Alliance.
Meanwhile, a force-sensitive human boy named Dev Sibwarra struggles to keep his freedom of will onboard the Ssi-ruk ship. When he senses Luke Skywalker's presence through the Force, he tries everything in his power to warn him what the Ssi-ruk plan to do to humanity. But it's not easy, especially when you are being brainwashed every few days.
What did I think of it? Well, to be honest, it was kind of strange. One of the strangest books I've ever read to be even more honest. But the book overall was pretty good, especially the ending, which was very interesting. I would recommend it to any Star Wars fan, especially those who wonder what happened after the final episode.
Monday, May 2, 2011
Divorce
Do you know anyone who is divorced? A friend, a family member, perhaps even your own parents are divorced. Divorce is awful. It hurts very much. When one experiences divorce, it breaks the heart, causing it to fall into thousands upon thousands of pieces. So many pieces that it is difficult to put them together. And sometimes, not all of them are put together. Some are lost forever, never to return and complete the puzzle again.
Currently, I am experiencing the pain that occurs when one's parents divorce. It hurts terribly. Especially because of everything that has caused it. I would rather not talk about what, but I will say that there is a lot of hurt and betrayal rolling around in my family. My heart aches, both from the sadness and anger. I am constantly shedding tears and grieving. And when I'm not grieving, I'm thinking about it because I can't push the fact that my parents are getting a divorce out of my mind. Not even for a few split seconds can I forget about it. I suspect that I will never forget about it either. They will never be together again. Nothing can stop them now. They are going to get a divorce, whether I like it or not.
As you can tell, it hurts. Not only is it hurting me, but it is hurting my parents and my siblings. I can see the loss etched into their faces. Even though we try to wear masks that cover up our true feelings, we know each other so well that we can see beyond them. That's what stinks even more. Our family use to be very close. Now everything has fallen apart. And I feel helpless because I can't place the pieces back together. In some cases, despite the fact that I know it is not my fault, I can't help but think that is.
So I would like you all to know that as I am dealing with this pain, it may be a while before I post my next blog post. I will be busy distracting myself with other matters. Mostly writing, but maybe reading a book or something as well. Please, if you wouldn't mind, I would like you to keep me in your prayers. Not just me, but my siblings, my mother, and my father as well. This is difficult on all of us. And it will be for a long time to come I imagine.
Until the next post, I bid farewell.
Currently, I am experiencing the pain that occurs when one's parents divorce. It hurts terribly. Especially because of everything that has caused it. I would rather not talk about what, but I will say that there is a lot of hurt and betrayal rolling around in my family. My heart aches, both from the sadness and anger. I am constantly shedding tears and grieving. And when I'm not grieving, I'm thinking about it because I can't push the fact that my parents are getting a divorce out of my mind. Not even for a few split seconds can I forget about it. I suspect that I will never forget about it either. They will never be together again. Nothing can stop them now. They are going to get a divorce, whether I like it or not.
As you can tell, it hurts. Not only is it hurting me, but it is hurting my parents and my siblings. I can see the loss etched into their faces. Even though we try to wear masks that cover up our true feelings, we know each other so well that we can see beyond them. That's what stinks even more. Our family use to be very close. Now everything has fallen apart. And I feel helpless because I can't place the pieces back together. In some cases, despite the fact that I know it is not my fault, I can't help but think that is.
So I would like you all to know that as I am dealing with this pain, it may be a while before I post my next blog post. I will be busy distracting myself with other matters. Mostly writing, but maybe reading a book or something as well. Please, if you wouldn't mind, I would like you to keep me in your prayers. Not just me, but my siblings, my mother, and my father as well. This is difficult on all of us. And it will be for a long time to come I imagine.
Until the next post, I bid farewell.
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